I wanna know

I’m coming out of my shell. I seek the answers denied me that have burnt a hole in my chest. I wanna know.

I wanna know what he thought of me in July when we had the worlds longest handshake.

I want to know why I got some beautiful looks.

I want those damn book recommendations.

I wanna know if he really knew my personality, if he really saw me or if he’s just excellent at BS.

I wanna know if he’s really as smart and perceptive as I think he is.

I wanna know what happened at Christmas.

I wanna know what he’d have said to me if I’d asked him about what I should do.

What I really want to know is if this man is who I think he is, or did I deify a man for some beautiful looks in October.

I wanna know why he didn’t eat the damn cheesecake!

I want answers and I should not be shy in getting them.

I wanna know really if there ever was anything between us.

Lets find out.

Grace and Courage.

Annetta Mother Smith.