Clear blue sky.

Spent a weekend with my mum. It was beautiful. But not in the way I thought. Last year I spent about £120 on Mother’s day. This year I spent £90. It was cheaper, but nicer. Last year, there was the debacle that was Mother’s day. TLDR. The day before Mother’s day last year was the day I decided to reconfigure my entire house. So I woke up in pain. I was in so much pain. But I went to church the next day. My cousin, an orphan, then showed up 3 hours late to a 4 hour event (church and dinner) and then I was cross but didn’t say anything. My mother on the other hand was livid…at me. Because I wasn’t understanding enough to an orphan. I have no father, but I don’t act a fool on Father’s day. My cousin was 29 and he went to a boxing match and bailed on his earlier plans, except this cost me money. I had to get a taxi from my mum’s to the restaurant, I spent about £15 so I didn’t lose £105. Then when he showed up, it was to stop me losing £35. He wasn’t in the right. Neither was my mum. My mum had “African son”  syndrome. Except he wasn’t her son. He’s her nephew. This year, it was just me and my mum, and we spent the day in Wisley, and then we spent the day in the garden today. I was meant to be there for he entire weekend, but I had headaches on Friday, and Saturday.

My mum is much happier when its just me. She loves me, when its just me. Meanwhile, if there’s anyone else, they get picked. She picks me if there’s no one else to pick and aside from a quick cuddle and ballet show by the “grandkids” then there was no one else to choose.

I reached out to my aunts and cousins. It was very sweet, my aunt Beatrice even called me! I can’t wait to have her here. We will have so much girly fun. Women have so much fun, we’re talented at that at least. I personally cannot wait to do girly things. Meanwhile my uncle will wish he’d never had a son, we’ll show him such a beautiful time. He’ll see why my dad was so happy to have a daughter.

Another thing was the lack of people at church on Mother’s day. There was no one. 30? Max? also it was Mother’s day. People talking about getting cards from  fully grown working adults. I personally see it as a failure. Come see her, and bring a gift. She gave birth to you. Mediocrity is encouraged in men, but also the standard of effort for everyone has dropped. Even daughters don’t do as much. But I guess “Modern life” eh?

It was overall a nice weekend. My poor mum worried about me as is her nature. But I am out of the woods now. Thank God.

Here’s to a nice and calm 2025. I have earnt it. Sky blue is the colour of the sky and also the colour of the year. Rich, calming, inspiring and empowering. Those are my words.

Grace and Courage

Annetta Mother Smith