My pleasure
I am powered by pleasure. I have finally realised how I think. It’s like a light went on in my head. I am a pleasure filled being. It affects everything I do and the way my brain is powered. I always wondered why I don’t have the instinct to destroy people. Because it’s not “enjoyment” I’m into. It’s a more earthy definition of pleasure. Far more sensual. For me, I am in pleasure when I am able to trust my instincts. To be able to be in touch with my heart. To feel the stillness, the pain the excitement. Pleasure and sensuality are intertwined and often they have a sexual connotation. This isn’t about sex for me. This is about feeling. Feeling with all of my 5 senses. Is it cold? Am I blasting my eardrums into the stratosphere? Is it beautiful? Am I connecting with nature? It gives me pleasure. Pleasure is what I seek. Connection with my heart is pleasure. Even if that feels painful. I grasp that nettle because I know tears are better than no feelings whatsoever.
Next thing is about seduction. As a child I learnt to debate. A highly important skill which should be part of the national curriculum. Debating is important because it is the person who is the most persuasive who wins. You can’t win by force. You can win with a clever mix of logic and emotion. I love it. The back and forth, the admissions and the oratory. It’s an art. By convincing people of the idea, you get into their hearts. Get into their souls. Very few people can get into a persons soul. I love that too. The depth of connection. You can resonate with people. You can also feed their darkest desires. Think hitler. I once represented Ireland in the model United Nations debate team. I did something curious. I lost the battle but won the war. In the first round I proposed “complete nuclear armament” not to be facetious but to tap into human nature. “Don’t mess with your enemy when they have a gun.” Thus promoting world peace through a fear of unstable dictators. It didn’t get through first round. Everyone voted instead for complete nuclear disarmament which is the logical “higher self” choice. But it’s much easier to take up arms than to convince your enemy to lay them down. So I continued fighting and eventually won everyone over! I had the motion to disarm the world voted down because everyone became convinced of my argument. I seduced an entire room full of people to let go of their higher selves and give into their base fears. “If my enemies have guns…I want them too.”
Pleasure must be defined form happiness.
Pleasure is instinctive, happiness is a choice. Joy and pleasure are not the same. Joy is a feeling you give to yourself. Pleasure is how you seek it. If pleasure becomes your purpose you will never find it. Joy comes from yourself. Happiness is a response to external stimuli. Husband. Children. Job
It is my pleasure that I must focus on and seeking joy, peace and love.
Grace and Courage
Annetta Mother Smith