I’m proud of myself today

Today is a simple day. And I am proud. Life isn’t all about big, thunderous unequivocal victories. Life is instead filled with the wind you don’t tell people. The wins no one tells you about when you have depression include….

I got up at 8:35 rather than 8:45 which meant I had time to shower before my driving lesson

Because I showered and did my hair I put on makeup. And put on a pretty perfume

I got my nails and eyebrows done

I went shopping and actually picked up some clothes that I like.

Rather than get loads of sweet things throughout the day. I had 2 breakfast bars and a bottle of water. As opposed to a sweet drink.

I went for a long walk.

I recognised that my head was feeling fuzzy and I made allowances for it when driving

I took the bus home rather than let south western railway screw with my life.

When I was incandescent with rage… I called a friend and tried to talk it out. Then when it was a prank….I calmed down quickly. Then wrote about it. Productive, no?

I got cake out of mild fancy, I was not desperate or forcing it. It was just nice.

All these things would not have happened had I stayed in my feelings/ in my PJ’s and not seized the day. But I did.

So I’m proud of myself today.

Well done, Anna, go forth and have another good day tomorrow… then go ahead and have a wonderful life.

Love you

Grace and Courage

Annetta Mother Smith.